All is Well

10. August 2009 by Bernice Davis.

Hello:

First, let me apologize for not posting on Thursday and Friday.  I spent all day Thursday looking for a family member who is struggling with a substance abuse and all night with that same family member in the emergency room and when we got home on Friday, I fell asleep and did not wake up till late in the day.  

I have known a lot of people who have struggled with family members and friends who have addictions but this is the first time it has been this close-up and personal in my life.   It is horrible.  Wondering where they are, if they are somewhere in the streets or even dead.  The agony in not being able to find them and especially when deep in their hearts you know they really want to stop but the addiction has such a whole on them.   Dealing with the things that the addiction causes them to do which hurts and affects so many people.  I felt like I have been living in a nightmare the last couple of days and I just want to wake up but only it’s real and there is no waking up.  This is a part of my life now.   At one point over this past week, I felt like I was in over my head but then my family came together and we all provided support which eased the load.

I have prayed more this past week than I think I ever have.   I have felt empowered by God despite this ugly situation.   All the things that I teach and preach it felt like I had to use it all in this past week.  You know, the “all things will work together for your good.”  God will keep you in perfect peace if your mind is stayed on him.”   Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding, acknowledge him in all your ways and he shall direct your path.”  Be anxious for nothing, but through prayer and supplication, let your requests be known to God and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your heart….  This is the confidence that we have in him that if we ask anything according to his will and if we know that he hears us then we have the petitions we have asked for.   And the list goes on and on……   I have had to stand on God’s word in a way that I have never done before and it was both empowering yet humbling.   I felt helpless yet strengthened.   I felt defeated yet victorious, I felt powerless yet capable of handling whatever came before me.  

I know these statements sound like contradictions, yet they were true emotions felt all at the same time.

Our God is amazing.   I could tell how much I have grown in God and how strong I really am in him. 

I will return to my study on tomorrow but I want to encourage all of us that Everything is okay.  All is well, Everything is safe and just as it should be.  

Believe it or not, this incidence has caused me to want to get closer to God.  I am not angry (not at God-at least, I am angered by the situation) and I am not feeling why me nor have I charged God foolishly as so many people do when difficult things in life happen.     I will survive this and so will my family member and God will get the glory out of this entire mess.

Please keep our family in your prayers!

God Bless you!!!!!!!!

 Stay encouraged and don’t forget to pray and read God’s word daily.

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